Don't you hate being an adult? I do. It seems like all I do is pay bills and work to have money to pay bills. It's never ending!! And you can never get ahead!! Oh how I wish to have my care free high school days back. At the time, I couldn't wait to be an adult and be on my own. I want to do what I wanted when I wanted and no parents to tell me I was wrong. Boy, if I could go back to when I was saying that I would slap myself so hard I wouldn't know what hit me. I had no bills and no job, but I had a car and money to do what I wanted. Yes, I was one of the spoiled girls. Mommy and daddy took care of me. Mom did ALL the house work, and dad... well lets just say if I wanted something dad was the man. I really didn't have to do anything!!!!! No chores, no job, no bills, nothing but playing sports and doing homework. I had the ideal life!! I WANT IT BACK!!!
I mean, I love being married and being a mom! But I hate having to be stressed out everyday about everything!! Pardon the language, but it SUCKS! This is what goes on in my head everyday...
What time to I need to get up in order to get myself and Ellison ready? Are my clothes cleaned and ironed? Do I have bottles cleaned and ready? Can I afford to buy this or that? Did I pay the bills that are probably due next week? Why is my check book off with the bank? Where will I find the money to pay this unexpected bill? Is my car riding funny and making a weird sound? How am I going to pay for that? When can I clean the house? When can I do the dishes and cook supper? When can I do the laundry? And so on and so on and so on... you get the picture?
I want to have my life I have now, but have mom and dad pay for me and do the house work. Is that too much to ask?
I know you have heard the saying..."If I knew then what I know now." Well, if I knew I would be making just enough to live off of, I would have saved all my money that I spent on stupid stuff when I was in college. I got a job during college just to have some spending money and not always have to ask mom and dad. You see I started to feel bad. But that money was my money. Not gas money or car payment or insurance payment... but my money! I would buy clothes and other stuff like that. Now, I wish someone would have told me to be smart and save it! Is it possible to go back and tell myself that? Can I wake up tomorrow and have that money in my bank account?
(thought broken by Ellison crying)
Well, now that I have woke up from my dream, I guess being an adult is really not that bad. Like I said earlier, I am my own boss. I can do what I want when I want. But it's still nice to think about!